MY DREAM

Anyway, I still have to be thankful in where I am right now. I may be deficient in certain aspects of my life or the things I do but still I am standing and ready to face everyday with a smile in my face. But i'm relatively contented right now, but still searching for a better life maybe in the future , my family and hopefully my future family. I envision myself 10-15 years from now, deserving a huge amount of paycheck, driving my own porshe carrera GTX Turbo on my way home. Having to deserve a vacation at least twice a month. It's actually not a life of luxury and pleasure but of enjoyment of the fruits of my labor. Thank God that imagining things is still free in this world.This morning I had a weird feeling of dreaming inside a dream. There was a point in where I am dreaming that I actually contemplated and asked myself if I am dreaming or not. Everything felt so true of course until I felt someone staring at me, which turns out to be my husband...lol. Until now, the dream is still vivid in my memory and it won't seem to go away. Maybe that's what I get when I often yank too much about getting up too early in the morning. I remember a professor of mine in Philosophy asked us a question before he left the class. What if the world we are living right now is all a part of a big dream? how do we determine if we are really dreaming in this time? is there a basis for us to know that we exist in this world and is not part of a whole big dream? hahaha! more thinking for me and it sucks!It sucks when I hear the phrase "nasa huli ang pagsisi" I'm trying to make amends to my shortcomings during the early times but then realizing that my efforts are somehow futile. My actions now really do not matter anymore because of certain things that led to the outburst of the issues. But then, its better late than never. I presume!